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[01 Jun 2013|11:22am]

So I was diagnosed with panic disorder about a month ago. I've had 20+ panic attacks this month, two that had me in the ER with a pulse of 170, plenty that wake me up in the middle of the night, and am currently participating in medication therapy and one to one therapy.. along with meditation, guided imagery, positive affirmations, etc. I live in Indianapolis and have found it very frustrating for find free support groups for those who struggle with anxiety and panic disorders. I have now taken it upon myself to find about 5 to 6 individuals who live in Indy and would be interested in meeting up to relate, vent, and share coping skills in a supportive and understanding environment.

I've also made a group on Facebook to go along with it... though I want more for that page. I want the group to be for everyone, all around the world who suffers from unhealthy anxiety, phobias, and panic disorders. I am not trying to take away from this community, as I think the more resources we have to come together and relate the better. So I am going to post a link to this group, it is an open group, and hope that this post will be approved. This group is for a good cause- a place for people to vent, share encouraging pictures and quotes, share coping mechanisms that may help you, share your story, and just fucking relate- and I'm just trying to get it out there because I know what it feels like to feel like you are losing your fucking mind and are completely alone. Again, please do not think I am trying to take away from this community- I think this is just as much as an awesome idea and just as important. I just want to put another resource out there.


Thanks so much, stay strong everyone :] <3

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[18 Feb 2010|09:05am]

Hi everyone :-)

im new here..I suffer from Panic Disorder and Agoraphobia. I am a 16 year old girl and I know how difficult and frightening it is to have this disorder.
I just thought I would share my blog with you, as my mother told me it could help keep others inspired and strong!

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ACT for Anxiety [20 Dec 2008|06:16pm]


Hi everyone,

I am assisting with a project that I think you may find interesting and has the potential to be helpful.  There’s a group of researchers who are doing a study about mindfulness and acceptance based self-help treatments for anxiety.  If you’re eligible, you can get a free copy of The Mindfulness and Acceptance Workbook for Anxiety.  If you’re interested, here’s the link:  www.ActforAnxiety.com.  I invite you to check it out and wish you the best.



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Acceptance and Commitment Therapy [08 Nov 2008|08:39pm]


Recent research suggests that Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) may be helpful for people struggling with a variety of psychological problems including stress, excessive fear, and anxiety. Researchers at the University at Albany – SUNY are currently conducting an innovative online self-help treatment study using ACT and mindfulness and acceptance practices to help people who are struggling with anxiety. Eligible participants will get a free copy of The Mindfulness and Acceptance Workbook for Anxiety by John P. Forsyth, Ph.D. and Georg H. Eifert, Ph.D. and the chance to learn new, workable ways of living a more meaningful and fulfilling life. If you’re interested, the link is www.ActforAnxiety.com.

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Need Some Help [22 Aug 2008|11:16am]

Just joined livejoural for the first time and this is my first post. I think im having some anxiety or depression problems im just not really sure. in 2006 I got high for the first and only time and had a panic or anxiety attack (not sure which) and for about a month after that I had anxiety when I wasnt in control of situations like riding in a car with someone else for a long period of time or going to the movies but it faded with time and focusing on school and losing weight I was watched what I was eating and exercising every day. But this summer its come back the past 2 months i've had bad anxiety just when im sitting around the house watching tv. And when I go out to restaurants or the movies everything gets really hot around me and i just have to leave. I also just learned this sumemr that my best guy friend is getting married which shocked my system. I went to the doctor to get a referall to a counselor and he prescribed a low dose (.25 mg) of xanax everyday but I know that that drug is really addictive and I dont want to get on something that could be managed differently. I have made an appointment with a counselor. I dont know maybe Im depressed but anyways I was just wondering if anyone has gone threw this also? It might just be me freaking myself out. any help would be greatly appreciated.
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Not sure what to make of this [12 Feb 2008|09:36pm]

[ mood | uncomfortable ]

Hey all, I came across this community while trying to find some answers and hoped that maybe someone here could help me.

I've been experiencing things and for the longest time really didn't think much of it besides my initial discomfort, but I'm beginning to get a bit scared so I wanted to find out what was going on. I think I might be having panic attacks, but I don't know for sure.
I have an intense fear of needles and for the most part, doctor's offices in general tend to make me uncomfortable. I'm sure there's a lot of people who feel the same way.
However, I feel like my fear tends to pretty much overtake me.

Last week I had to go into the clinic at my university to have a physical done for studying abroad. For some reason, the sheet I had to have filled out asked about being tested positive for HIV tests, so I went in expecting to have to get an HIV test done.
From the moment the nurse came out to get me and take me to the room, I was starting to shake and I started breathing really fast. Once the nurse had done the initial tests, she left the room to get the doctor and I just sat in the room practically crying and holding the inside of my arms, which is what I always do even if someone just like... mentions the word needle. My heart was beating really fast and it got a bit hard to think. It actually turned out that my doctor didn't think I needed the test since I'd done nothing that would give me any chance of being HIV positive, but I continued to be like... on edge, with my heart racing and super-alert through the rest of the physical and even the entire walk back to my car, which was like, a 10 minute walk.

Then tonight, I was in my performance arts class and were watching a video, which happened to be about this guy with cystic fibrosis that let his wife do all kinds of weird, very painful things to him (very strange, don't ask), and the entire time I was shaking, breathing heavily and had my whole body curled up as close to me as I could. Afterwards, one of the girls sitting across from me came over to see if I was alright since it looked liked I was about ready to pass out or puke or something. The whole way home I then just felt really out of it and a bit dizzy, like nothing was real. I stopped at Hy-Vee because I was feeling nauseous and thought that eating might help, and the whole time I was there I felt like, super-alert, and like everyone was watching me and ANNOYING me, even though I'm sure no one was. I got back into my car and almost started crying, having to make myself take really deep breaths to settle down.

So now I'm a little scared since I've never had something that intense happen before, and I'm still shaking a little bit, like my body experienced muscle trauma or something. It's hard to concentrate. But I don't know if this was a panic attack or something else or what, and I'd really like to find out some answers to I can look into it more and maybe find some help. =\

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[29 Jan 2007|05:43pm]

Has anyone ever taken Effexor XR? What was your experience with it? Thanks! ♥
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Need med help/advice [22 Dec 2006|12:27am]

[ mood | worried ]

Hi there. I haven't posted on here in a while. Just to remind, I have Anxiety and Panic Disorder. Back last February I weaned off of Paxil because I thought it wasn't being as effective as it should have been. I was getting panic and anxiety attacks. My psychiatrist at the time weaned me off the Paxil completely before starting me on Effexor XR. The withdrawal was terrible. I started off at 37.5 Effexor XR until some of the anxiety came back and I raised the dosage to 75. Pretty soon I was on 112.5 mg. When I had a return of symptoms in July I went up to 150 mg but went back down again right away because of worry about fast heartbeat. I was fine for about two more months. Then some situations cause the anxiety to return. I tried 150 mg again for about 2 months. Didn't really work, felt just as nervous, went back down to 112.5 a couple weeks ago. I know all this really makes it sound like I was yo-yo-ing, but I feel I did give the Effexor XR a fair chance.
I changed psychiatrists mid-stream too, since the previous one was impatient and petulant. Anyway, Effexor XR doesn't really seem to be keeping my nervousness and anxiety under control like the Paxil did when I used to take it for 5 years. My current psychiatrist suggested switching to Pexeva. So I have a couple of questions:
1.) How are Paxil and Pexeva different (they are both paroxetine), and why would Pexeva work if Paxil's effectiveness wore off after 5 years?

2.) My doctor wants me to start on 20 mg of Pexeva while weaning off of Effexor XR. (He says he thinks Pexeva is more effective than Effexor XR for helping anxiety.) Should I be worried about Serotonin Syndrome while doing this? Has anyone else done this? It kind of scares me to be on two of these meds at once.


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Ever have that feeling when you KNOW something's wrong but there's no answer??? [17 Nov 2006|12:46pm]

[ mood | curious ]

So get a load of this.

My panic attacks began this August, at the very end during band camp.

I'm in college, right? Typical 18-year-old (at the time) girl... went through a rough breakup like most of us do, typical smart kid who cares about her grades and stressed about them, loves band and choir, hangs out with friends, typical BUSY college kid, that can be expected, etc. etc. Kind of a spaz, stress relatively easily and moderately high-strung. I never knew I was so stressed out that I'd basically be making my body sick.

During band camp at my college we were at an indoor rehearsal and I started having difficulty breaking while playing my flute. I thought maybe I'd just been overworking my diaphragm since I play an instrument and it was band camp... the most stressful 10 days for a college marching band. Well then my body started tingling almost all over. I had to have someone help me leave the room and I missed the rest of rehearsal. Over the next couple of weeks I started having this happen again... when I was driving home from school, which was MAJORLY scary, when I was just sitting with my mom or a friend... etc. When I felt the beginnings of one at 2:30 in the morning sometimes it wold often keep me up until 5 when I'd have to get up at 6 or 7 for school (I commute) because I was so afraid that whatever this was would make me suffocate in my sleep. I had NO idea what was going on and neither did anyone else...

Well I went to my family doctor, who said in response to me thinking I overworked the diaphragm or a muscle in my ribcage that it was entirely possible. He said take an Alleve right before marching band and you should be fine. Well that day at marching band rehearsal, after I took his advice and took the Alleve, it got so bad that I had to sit out, and then as I was simply SITTING, I got so tingly that I actually went NUMB and FELL OVER. I was there on my back and I had people trying to ask what was wrong, but for two minutes I couldn't even move my tongue and lips to talk, so they had to keep telling me to slow down my breathing. I just COULDN'T though... the air wouldn't come in! I thought I was having a stroke or something.

Went to the ER and they did an EKG and took a blood and urine sample and a chest X-Ray. Nothing. Got sent to a cardiologist as a follow-up, but he found nothing. Went back to the family doctor who tested me for asthma, and while the pulminary test indicated that INDEED I wasn't breathing so well, it got WORSE with the inhalor they tried on me. Nope, not asthma. Definitely not.

He put me on Xanax for a week and said see if it helps. If it does, we know it's anxiety. Well it didn't help. I kept having more what I was calling "episodes" at the time. Went back in a week after I had another bad one driving. He told me he still thinks anxiety has a lot to do with it, it's simply more chronic than he originally thought. So he put me on Lexapro, and said keep taking the Xanax with it until the new stuff settles into your body and all that junk, and if you ever have a panic attack even with the Lexapro, take the Xanax to help. Well the Lexapro is working really well, so I indeed was having panic attacks.

It's just scary though. I knew with panic attacks you can't breathe, but I didn't know you get tingling and numbness and stuff like that. It was scary because it took about a month and a half to figure out what was truly the problem, and in the meantime I had to quit marching band for the season and I was suffering because even when I didn't have a full-blown panic attack, I was almost NEVER breathing completely normal, and I'd be hunched over the desk in class, etc. I'm so glad it's over now!!! I'll be on the Lexapro for another 4 months or so (6 months total...) and I just hope I won't need anymore pills after that. I hope my life can completely go back to normal.

What were some of your experiences with panic attacks? I'd be interested to hear your stories!

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[14 Aug 2006|07:39am]

[ mood | scared ]

I've been a member here for a while, but just not really posted that much. See, for years, well since I was a child and I'm now in my 30's, have suffered from anxiety/panic attacks, both. I get little periods of being able to go out more, and then something happens and it's so hard to even step outside of my door. I'm not sure what that is, I go to a doctor for it, but he never tells me anything and just throws pills my way, one kind after another.
Well, since the spring I've been able to get out more, not a lot still, but more then before. But lately I keep having panic attacks, and these aren't just anxiety attacks, these are huge panic attacks and I'm not sure what's wrong with me. I keep trying to fight it, but I just don't know what to do.

Now, for one thing is anyone else out there like me? Does anyone have problems like I do? Or am I the only one like this? Also, does anyone know if talking to a phsycologist instead or besides going to the phsyciatrist, could also help?

Does anyone know if there are any places you could go for help for this? I don't mean like the psych ward at the hospital, I mean where they will really help you and talk to you and you can possible live there, even for a short period of time while you work through it?

x-posted at myanxiety

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[01 Aug 2006|03:29pm]

i was originally prescribed Xanex for the night before or morning of my surgery that i had not too long ago. I didn't take it, but last night i was extremely depressed because of an event that occured, but i didn't. i was wondering what would happen if i took one, since i was not originally prescribed it for depression/anxiety in general, just for my surgery... :-\
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The Woofy Dog Song [16 Jul 2006|12:07pm]


Here's a happy and silly little video which I thought I'd share with everyone here! :)
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[15 Jul 2006|11:24pm]

I am thinking about asking my doctor for a stronger dosage of my medication and another perscription for my tranquilizers, it is expiring soon.
I am afraid to talk to the doctor because I am afraid that he is going to want to try me on something different and what I am on is really helping a lot and I want to stay on it. It is called Fluoxetine. I have heard so many horror stories of people having to go from med to med trying to find the right one and I really don't want to go through that.
Last night I had a drink while sitting in front of the camp fire. It is the first time that I have drank to calm myself and I don't want to start doing that. I know that it is not healthy.
Guess I am just trying to hold off on taking my tranquilizers (alprazalam) unless I am really panicky because I only have a few left. I just have to get off it and go see the doctor or at least give him a call.
I have also been sleeping more than usual but I think that it is because anxiety and panic attacks really take a lot out of me physically.
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[15 Jul 2006|01:48pm]

Sorry to keep posting all these questions but I have another one. Has anyone hear ever been rushed to the hospital because of a panic attack? If so how was it, what did they do, and do you wish that you held out lnger and didnt go?
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[14 Jul 2006|10:41pm]

Hey I have a question that might seem odd, but I'm assuming there's a few people here who would be able to answer this. Does anyone here know how smoking pot affects people with anxiety? I heard it can cause panic but I'm not sure, anyone have any experiences with it?
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[11 Jul 2006|05:37pm]

[ mood | frustrated ]

I have been so anxious lately. I had a hard time getting out of bed today to face the world. I felt like hiding out, locking the doors, shut off the phone and close the curtains...
There is just so much conflict in my life right now and that is not something that I deal well with. Plus we are moving which is stressful in itself, bickering with my husband and to top it off I injured myself at work. A cart was pushed into me and damaged a tendon in my heal.
Sometimes I can tell myself one day at a time and then there are always the days that I take it one hour or one minute at a time. Trying to live in the present instead hashing over the past and scaring myself with all the what ifs.
I have physical things that go on with me when it comes to anxiety like shortness of breath, feeling like running but not know what from and where to, trouble with my throat, head aches, restlessness....
I wish I was not like this. I wish I could deal with all of this better. I know that what sometimes feels like every day stuff to some feels like mountains to me.
I'll get there, just frustrated.

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[09 Jul 2006|06:29pm]

I struggle on a daily basis with anxiety and depression. I was having panick attacks on a daily basis but they have slowed down with the meds that I have been taking.
I was so against the medication and constantly beat myself up for needing it, I guess I still do sometimes to be honest. But it does help. I take Fluoxetine and alprazolam.
As much as I don't like meds, I don't like anxiety or panicking even more. So meds it is...
I only started having anxiety problems a few years ago and it has only been a year since the panick attacks started. The panick attacks were the straw that broke the camels back so to speak and brought me to a place where I was willing to get the help that I needed.
I wonder if I will have these problems for the rest of my life or if one day I will be free of them? I wonder how long I will be taking these pills?
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[30 Jun 2006|03:04am]

A question for all of you that i hope you can give me some insight into.

What do you do if your safe person becomes disinterested in helping you. For about 2 and a half years my husband (started out as just boyfriend) has been my safe person. He was someone that i knew i could count on if i need someone to be with me during bad panic times. Lately though he has not really seemed to interested in helping me. I know it can get annoying at times but i do need someone and if i feel abondoned then that just makes the panic that much worse. He knows when i am panicing because i have some signs that it is happening (i take short coughs a lot and i chew on my mouth) so it's not that he doesn't know it's just that he doesn't help.
Maybe he is tired of it. I don't know but i don't like to talk about it with him because he gets defensive. He doesn't mean to. I know he is a wonderful man and he helps me out a great deal it's just lately he has been doing this. I do know that i probably overwelmed him with all of it before because i use to have attacks everyday and sometimes all day. now i don't have them as much but when i do they are pretty bad.
i guess i am just worried that's all. I am panicing right now and he is asleep. I really don't have anyone else that knows everything and knows what to do. Someone please help me.
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[24 Jun 2006|06:38am]

I'm sorry if this is off-topic, but I was wondering if any of you wanted to friend me? I'd love to have some friends that understand what I am going through :)
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[22 Jun 2006|09:57pm]

I was wanting to discuss Klonopin. My doc gave it to me as a short term solution to my panic attacks. How did you all feel about this medication, in general? My dosage is .5 mgs to 1 mg as I see fit.
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